Brooke & The Sea Lion.

i posted it on my mental calendar: FOR OCT 20TH, YOUR POST WILL BE ABOUT BROOKE FRASER.

Just wanted to make a little post about how I met her exactly a year ago. (See the Fraser Fever Post Here!) It was one of the highlights of my 2010... in addition to another show of hers at the El Rey about 2 months after.
Didn't want to forget and hoped I wouldn't forget, but, ah! I did. (Last Thursday was so crazy, and I had so much important matters to attend to... which I hope will soon be over! I'm tired!)
It's amazing how she's still on tour and I think will be for another number of months! Tour after tour, go Brookie! You energizer bunny!

Anyway, here's her uber fun rendition of Sea Lion:


... my post title sounds like a book title, or a band name. HAHA. or i guess it sounds better as (Brooke & The Sea Lions.)

journey series: seasons and reasons.

*Photo from Jules A'Bell on Twitter

so, last year, i made decisions without knowing the probable results.
chose to leave school, for reasons known and unknown. a most frustrating season because of judgment and expectations. deep inside i knew i chose the road less traveled, was it gonna be good? was it gonna be bad? i had no clue.

i found freelance work, and a temporary filler position that paid for the loans and bills. and at the dawn of the new year, life turned upside down.

christmas was like no other, but in all the chaos, in all honesty, it was one of the best christmases' i've ever had. all of me, laid at the savior's feet. 2010 and 2011 in surrender and in awe. following that was a crazy month of living in an empty house and literally bumming it around. it was so crazy and adventurous. it was a rainy winter and it was amazing living feeling like, "could this be the last day of my life?" (HAHAHA. everyday was like a scene out of a film.)

the new year came, and i don't think i had time to think about how i truly felt at that time. thoughts and ideas were a blur, life was at a blur. nothing was at my reign and control, but i felt so liberated. all i had to do was surrender to each new day of twenty-eleven, and again, leaving everything at the savior's feet, believing for the best.

unfortunately, job hunting wasn't looking too good. had barely saved anything. i had hoped to have at least half of what i intended to save for australia. it was the one thing i couldn't keep out of my head. absolute gravitational pull.

i could've approached life terrified, but by the saving grace of my God, i felt somehow, invincible.
nothing was going to plan, but everything started to make sense. and i began to see the purpose and reason for everything that happened in 2010. i cannot explain it, but it was definitely miraculous.

so keeping my head-up... i finally landed a job as a nanny, just a short walk up from my old neighborhood. a new course in my australian dream presented itself... and the year was looking promising...

i've never felt so fearless, but absolutely terrified at the same time.
but we do only live once, and i'm not gonna live it recklessly, but i am gonna take some risks.
once is enough, once is all we're gonna get, and i wanna do it right with the one chance i have.

there will be more seasons just like the ones that passed me by, rainy, crazy, solemn, and blurred.
it'll be a storm, but somewhere in the middle of that season, i know i'll remember, then get excited about the day i get to look back and realize that "everything happens for a reason". for now i don't know, but i have to keep going.

can't wait for the day the skies clear.

__________________ is the reason.

veggie tales.

so i attempted to make a poster for the harvest fest at my church. however, i had to give it to my friend who made an amazing poster, of course we're gonna go with hers instead!

here are my little pumpkin exercises:

journey series: rewind.

i can't describe every detail, but here's the perfect explanation. i couldn't really create a "rewind" post, i could, however,take you back to experience a moment in 2010.

This CAPTION takes you to my "WHO I AM" post!
Or, you can also find it in the side bar under most viewed posts...

this rewind is uplifting, yes, almost functioning like the slingshot theory. i hope my heart starts to trust and believe the way i did then. i'd love to finish this race gloriously, win or lose.

today we start: the journey series

i'm not really sure how to start, like most cases, but as the title implies, today.. we start. whatever it is that is needed to be done. today's the day to do it. today's the day to start.
i thought about making a record of my simple thoughts to map out an experience. last night, i thought, "maybe if i write them down, it'll all make sense."

'cause, about half-way through, i think i lost sense of it all. and finding it all back, ...reason, passion, sanity, and the cause, is all part of the ride. i hope, in all that i relay, if someone comes across it, that they'll take something from it, and go. 'coz let me tell you, it sucks being afraid all the time.

the year is closing, and i'm here, mid-journey, writing everything from the beginning.
recording, ..the possibilities of a new life.

a new beginning.

in sydney? in sydney... . . in sydney.

 Adam Crews Photography

there is no certainty for me, and honestly, no rest, until i step aboard the aircraft that takes me across the pacific.

for now, i'll take myself to painstaking periods of 2010, muster up the courage to write the next post, and live the next day.