so lesson learned.
i can be a mental paralytic sometimes.
if it all starts in the mind, well, i've often let myself be overcome by the obstacles i create in my mind.
either i get stuck thinking the worst, thinking that i can't overcome the worst of the worse, or even not-the-worst of the worse. i find myself unable to see the actual opportunities laid out in front of me, because right at the beginning, i doom myself to fail.
and now, i've faced failure, and even though there is no guarantee that i will not fail again.
i'm not as afraid.
slate's clean. somewhat of a breather.
some decisions i made this year.
1. i decided i'd keep my promise to myself and forge on with my desire to try life in australia.
2. i decided to do my best at whatever circumstance i faced and battle on.
3. i decided to scrimp and save the best i could for the coming journey.
4. in the middle of everything, i took an EKG Monitor Tech class. (not a science buff, but i passed with flying colors.)
5. i decided to keep going even if the path seemed rocky with loops and detours.
6. so i finally applied to hillsong international leadership college in late july.
7. and when i got offered a place, i decided to take it.
8. then i decided to apply for a visa.
9. and amidst all the mixed emotions, on monday, i received their reply, and they granted me a pass to study in australia.
10. and today, i decide that whatever happens from here on out, fail or succeed... one thing i learned, is to keep my head up, and try, and try, and try, and try and try again.
we all have to make choices.
and i've decided, i don't want to be lame any longer.
it's a tough road, but i'm the only one who's gonna walk it.