168 Hours.

For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ, for it is the power of God to salvation for everyone who believes, for the Jew first and also for the Greek. -Romans 1:16

chart a course of action.

vision - preparation - execution/action.

it's good to be in a new environment... fresh ideas, inspired outlook.

although i've gotta be honest, sometimes the future looks cloudy, not necessarily a bad thing... sometimes the sun can be quite piercing and a little shade can be nice.

so i'm taking it slow, i'll list my dreams, but at the same time, i'll trust God for what He's got for me.
a friend told me to relax and enjoy the ride, because my big God has got everything covered.

and i believe that.

i've gotta get my mind to start looking more like this:

get things organized in there... not that it's a real mess right now. but when things are in order, (just had a pep talk about keeping my spirit, soul and body in top shape today!) we tend to get things done much more efficiently. i need a lot of time in prayer, research and study-- coz "my" plans just pretty much went up to australia and hillsong college. now, i wait again for the Holy Spirit to lead.

praying for the future.

it's already April. time goes by so quickly, and next thing you know, i'll soon be standing at another fork in the road. i'm happy with where i am and where i'm planted at the moment.

can't wait to look back and be a living testimony of what God's doing and has done in my life.

for now, we wait and hope for the best.
i'm making a map of my life, and i can only chart where i've been, but i say, onwards to uncharted territory. i've got my God to guide me. #holyspirit

Walk on the Water

my current anthem. a true song to shout to the Lord.

i almost forgot about this.

Ephesians 3:20

New International Version (NIV)

 ²⁰ Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,

Our God is Able.

Praising my way to victory. Amen!

God has a plan for my life.

it all seems unclear now, but i can't wait for the following seasons, in which i get to look back at this part of my life, and understand the why behind today.

made it today.

"I'll pretend that it's no thing that's skipping my heart when I think
Of you thinking of me babe I'm crazy over you" - brooke fraser, sitw x flags

that's for the real desire of my heart: 2012.
(amongst others things, issues and such.)

for the rest of the year, i'm charging you in the face.
living with an amazing grace. (yea, that rhymes. so what.)
coz 2012 is the year of the dragon, and i'm claiming promise on my year.
2011, you were a tumble, a crazy season, a stretch and a learning period.
but,.. boy i'll be glad when you're done and over with.
august and september you've been a storm.

lesson learned: things turn out better when you're still.

Matthew 8:23-27 - Jesus Calms the Storm

 ²³ Then he got into the boat and his disciples followed him. ²⁴ Suddenly a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping. ²⁵ The disciples went and woke him, saying, “Lord, save us! We’re going to drown!”  ²⁶ He replied, “You of little faith, why are you so afraid?” Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm.
 ²⁷ The men were amazed and asked, “What kind of man is this? Even the winds and the waves obey him!”

Psalms 46:10

¹⁰ He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;
   I will be exalted among the nations,
   I will be exalted in the earth.”

picking up the pieces and moving on, wherever He leads. I will surely follow.
even if it's tough as nails, i'm holding on.

GO.

absolute truth.
done & done.

true.

talk about a having a song written for me.

God's grace guys. HOW GOOD IS HE!

sunday to begin the week...

I find GREAT hope in the Aftermath.
Such a beautiful moment... when I sit and think about my life, seriously, no better place to be... to sit at Jesus' feet. He did the saving, He's working in me. I could never ever, will never ever understand, nor ever even grasp the beauty of His ultimate surrender to the Father. It literally blows my mind. I find myself so humbled, so unworthy, yet He lifts me up to tell me that I am worthy. Worthy of His love that's worth is like none others'. Unfathomable, unconditional love... !

I often forget how big my God is, and I'll say I forgot many times today, but how He never forgets small me, ...

What can I bring? What can I give...? What can I say?
True, ... Holy, Holy, Holy is the Lord God Almighty.

had i to choose...

had i to choose a valentine, i'd probably pick joel houston, or maybe. or maybe not. i don't know. hmm. (i do very much admire him and his heart for Jesus! and his heart for the lost! such an inspiring leader in this generation!) and it doesn't help that he's amazingly tall and has a nice little scruffiness to him. hmm! :)

so, yes, these are my last thoughts for valentine's day. i greet you, hoobalahey, happy valentine's day!
i hope you may fall in love with the one who wants to love you oh-so-unconditionally, Jesus.

from the darkness comes a light.

and my eyes have never seen the sky so clear, and my ears have never heard a ringing so true.

i waited, cried and shouted my deepest longing and desire for His heart, and definitely, HE DID NOT TARRY. In His precious and appointed time, He came, He gave, and He answered my heart's desire.

Habakkuk 2:3
For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; Because it will surely come, It will not tarry.


My God is ever faithful, in every season, I will praise Him. I walk, He has awaken my soul, and for His name, I will GO.

a beautiful exchange

holiday limbo.

bad or good? a little of both.
i can't believe i'm saying this, (because i've been refusing to say this all the while..) "can't wait to get home"
first, because i really don't want to call los angeles home anymore, because i've left my heart in melbourne, australia. really have. i guess i kinda feel like that country girl who feels like she's made for the city, new york, hollywood, or whichever big town it is, JUST THE REVERSE. i want to get away from los angeles, i don't think that's the city i'm meant to live in. sure, i really honestly love los angeles, for the most part, but after being away from it for so long now, (the longest now, last time i was away, was a little over a month...) i feel so detached from it, like i see it from the outside now, and i really don't feel like going back in.
second, i still kind of don't want to go home. i feel like being away from home helps me think clearly about what - i - want, and not what people expect of me.
it's kinda hard stepping away from that when you've been used to that all your life... being a kid, a teen, and now an adult fully realizing that i do get to make my own decisions, and as much as it is liberating, somehow it's frightening, i feel like my heart keeps jumping out of my chest when i sit down to take myself seriously.

hmmm, los angeles, back to routines, schedules, zipping by weekends, and zooming by freeways. although, i guess when i go back this time around, i'll be on a different routine, on the road less traveled. trading what i've known, and risking it for the future. change.

i'm glad God's got it all under control. He's got it all mapped out for me. and even though i feel a little invincible at the moment, i must remember to wear His armor and not mine, 'cause if i do wear mine, then i'm bound to be struck the first hour out into the battle field. God's shield is indestructible.

i'm overjoyed, so blessed, also because i just read Jill McCloghry's post about her little girl, Hayley and was so touched by her testimony.. and now as i'm looking over my life with this encouraging perspective and remembering that God sees everything bird's eye view, and from up there everything is so beautiful, my eyes well up with tears of joy, because with life's twists and turns and uncertainties, i know in my life, there's one thing that stands true, Jesus' amazing love. i just have to trust that all's well in His hands.

WOW, my God is so amazing.

so, i know there are reasons for every circumstance in our lives.  being stranded here in manila for almost a month now, when i only hoped to stay for a week,... i didn't realize, would be so life-changing. i've been able to think and really analyze my options of what i want to do in the future. honestly, and most importantly, it's a place that i get to really sit and talk to God, and LISTEN to Him.

i think i'm not supposed to be home yet because He's giving me all this time to think and consult with Him about my heart's desires. i'm supposed to be here in manila not just on a holiday limbo, but more purposefully to readjust my life's lenses. after being so so pumped in australia not just at Hillsong but at my Aunt's local church, and just the overall atmosphere of worship that surrounded me, i was so blessed to be there. God refueled me, rejuvenated me, refreshed me, and now i'm on the follow up, still need some equpping for the big battle waiting at home... and when he thinks i'm ready, then he'll bring me home to los angeles.

My God is so Good. So Great. So Loving. I thank you Jesus that You have chosen me.

hillsong church is blessed.